Before I was Disabled Girl on Fire. I was Thriving Disabled. This was a blog/podcast that I tried to launch anonymously. Anonymity was a major problem. I was trying to be all cloak and dagger, and I couldn’t be outright fully honest. I realized that by hiding and being stealthy I wasn’t going to help anyone and after doing the podcast it brought a HUGE problem to the forefront.
I was living a life of complete and total fear. I was terrified all the time.
There was a lot of processing that happened and eventually, after talking to Gwen and J of FireDrill Podcast in the most frank manner I have ever spoken to anyone I realized I couldn’t hide. I couldn’t down play things any more. I couldn’t pretend everything was fine, or believe that my SSDI, or health issues were no one’s business. I had to stop living in shame and guilt and only by being open could I help anyone else struggling. Only by being open could I truly be me. Me at my best.
I called Gwen and cried over the phone with her, emailed J, and ultimately came to the decision that I was going public. I was going to be open and honest and I had to accept that judgement and criticism was going to come into my life. People have no idea what choices I am forced to make because I don’t show them.
I’m here, and I know there are other disabled bloggers here. Being disabled doesn’t mean you’ll never FIRE. It may mean your FI journey may be different, but when I discovered Mr. Money Mustache in 2012 it changed my life and I believe FIRE principles can improve anyone’s life regardless of income or health status.
There are some misunderstandings in the summary/podcast, but it is the open and honest discussion that made me realize I no longer wanted to be driven by fear. I wanted a chance to reach for whatever I could accomplish. I wanted the choice. Here is me. Choosing.
Here’s me: Super Secret Podcast from Fire Drill Podcast.